There was a time in the 70's when we were all excited about the new rock act. and swing was the dance of the heyday..we decided to take a trip down memory lane with the sec2NT's sole concert showcasing acts from the young to the young at heart. I don't like talking much right now,and seeing that Ida has been kind enough to email me the photos from yesteryears,here goes the show.. =)

OK fine,nothing to do with the show cos i din't think it was nice/clear enough for display.but maybe i should mention the girl in the polka dot number.that's Ida. cikgu Ida. She's been my company at the local zoo,and together we've been corrupting the minds of young generations. (alright alright,mostly its my work). she's an incredible cheecherr,Ida. haha,confirm flattered habis member,cos i write a post about her. that should bring her popularity up by about 5.23%. an avid columnist and also a budding teacher-to-be, she could be a truly great mother. and she's been gushing to me about how cute babies are..(Ida,ingat tuu. aku boleh tolong buat! nyahahaha!!)

but i love her for her enthusiasm towards nurturing young minds. nuff said. trade off is,she does her work super efficiently it makes me look like im so bloody lazy..go staff room and sleep first thing. tsk! so anyway,this is like a shoutout to her,to thank her for the fun times.without her my incessant pesterings and random comments would go unanswered. 

thank you ida!!!

fuzz>>DEE - awrite dee lee..fancy that, you restrict your blog entry.haha...whats the magic words?? =P oh and my mistake,blk 85 is my boyfriend's. heh..

fuzz>>NAD - they're like standing right behind me even as i type!

i couldnt reply the long tags with "yeah,okay" so here's one for the long winded ppl. me included.

fuzz>>>IDA - haha,laugh out loud and realise the world's really just ludicrous. that is why we have days off to let loose. so that we can hang tight when the going gets tough.. =) your word k,you owe me lunch!

fuzz>>DEE - dee lee?? wowzers. wait, verify your identity pls : BLK 85 Toa Payoh ______ ? haha.

fuzz>>SHEKIN - erps,hokay. so i'll see you when i see you, and then get the book from you. i've already one on the to-read list.Heh..

ok,done. its raining,ppl. i've decided to do the dina thing..pictures also courtesy of dina..heh. THANK YOU babe.. aku tau aku pencuri =)

LOCATION: AMK BANQUET
TIME: 19 - SEVEN (nana says so)
DATE: 15/05/2007 (TUESDAY)

[above and below} you know when it comes to these two there's no proper picture.

[below] The ones that tell me when enough is enough.

these recent times have given me a new look at things.
but none so severe as the fact that i keep a revered silence over it.
i just cannot stand the accusing look,the suspicious glare and the all too insensitive words you use. i keep wondering if you've menopaused already..having so much to take in and nothing much to let out,you think i'd lay down for you to trample on. you think that you're always right by virtue of status and age. you think i do not give a hoot about what goes on in the household. hell,im s'posed to have already taken over the running of the family. and you think that my actions are irresponsible in your eyes. I bet you never thought for once that maybe,im doing all these for you? that i stay out so much just to be able to let you stay in. you've breathed the odd sigh of resignation at having to slog day in day out just to keep the roof over our heads. i respect that. truly no one ever knows what you're going thru until he walks a mile in your shoes. but not finding anyone who does, doesnt mean that you can leave me with the cleaning up to do,because you say i need to be responsible..not doing anything doesnt neccessarily mean that i am oblivious to the raw emotions that permeate the walls of this house,you know. that door is the only thing that shuts out my naked vulnerabilities from the world. the door that belongs to you.that i cannot lock because of your untrusting nature. I AM YOUR SON,for crying out loud!

if ever i do not have any credibility left because i do not do what i say,you may well smirk and tell me that you were right. but until then do not put me down because you feel like it,or because you think its your right to castigate me.

i am not lying down doing nothing.if thats what you really want to know.

ok so cikgu has a fun side. but so what? most of the time you make me wanna strangle each and every one of you. sure enough,we laugh,we share jokes. i am not much older than them students,anyhow. picture above was taken with iMac @ Infocomm room. just FYI.heh..

i want to say so much more but maybe i'll put it all on hold until after the MYE or at least when im done marking and shite...*sigh. no wonder people see me small,tink i cannot become teacher. takperrrr,siak betul korang! aku tunjukkan korang! hah.

k,bye.

Am i too nice to you,that you have to take advantage of me? In my presence you knock over the glass of water and smudge all the ink on the letter meant for you. The letter that has all of my nuances and which contains all the indentations reflective of my idiosyncracies. you swiftly wash away the contents of my being into oblivion with one compelling motion of ignorance or plain indifference. And i am left with nothing but the memory of ever writing down what I felt at that moment in time, with sheer fuzz as companion to the hazy days that remain for me.

and we used to have titillating conversations.

I've got too many thoughts in my head now. I've got another class to go for and that ends at 3.30pm, but that isn't HALF of my day. I used to like wednesdays alot because it meant that I could go out with friends and have a short break from what I did. Now its double the work. The weather makes it worse even in the aircon comfort. Maybe it really is because of the aircon that i am feeling this way. apart from that i also got out the wrong side of bed today. i got up and out straight instead of from the left. hahaha... so things do not go the way a good wednesday should be. i wish it'd rain so i can feel this cleansing stuff going on. but i dont want the surge of orders for MCD later,pls!

anw,becks has got this knack for writing stuff that hits the nail on the head,even as i suffer from repressed inarticulation. gees,its not the word i've used in a long time..so she's good. i respect her. envy,in fact.

anyway,class begins in 4mins. i'll talk to you later.

sometimes im so sick and tired of having to project emotions.the endless clicking of the emoticons on a conversation window..it just gets too taxing. showing emotion could also lead to peril,as in the case of that idiot who wanted to defy me when i spoke to him nicely. apparently being nice doesnt pay so i had to hold on to the table to stop myself from bashing his face in; and his stunt to play the neighbourhood gangster failed miserably. at these times i wonder if the moments i used to hold the T-baton were merely exercises of my only too happy to use force on you persona. but NOT giving in to emotion also poses its problems. is my passive, somwehat indifferent looking face reflective of how i feel inside? do you think i do not care, do not feel, do not want to do something better? maybe im tired,maybe im just plain lazy to open my mouth and speak.
maybe you should leave me alone. or maybe i may be crying out for help in my silence. tell me,why are emotions so complex? you can give me a scientific explanation for it but still the idea eludes my grasp altogether. there are times i wish i could be a plant, or an animal (like a meerkat?). they do not have to constantly weather the seasons in a person's mind..or do they have emotions,too??

i've seen animals cry when their offsprings are taken away or killed. i've also heard of trees bleeding when punctured. talk about dominion over all living creatures..us Man haven't even completely reined in our emotions. im tired and feeling shit about it.

but THEY say emotions are in your control,you decide if you'll feel sad or glad or plain hopping mad. i've decided to wear my Oscar the grouch face now. GO AWAY!!! (I'll be nice later;that'll be the Elmo face.)

HAPPY 19TH DEAR BABY SISTER! YOU KNOW WHAT WE ALWAYS SAY IN THE FAMILY,and in my own words i add on: YOU WORKED HARD FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE NOW.THAT IS ALREADY AN ACHIEVEMENT,SO THATS COOL!

now formalities aside,i've recently established that there ceases to be a point where a conducive environment is present for learning.
I was in a class to invigilate the common tests. here's the stats -- weather was cool and there was a drizzle outside. i was already a tired man prior to this,and the musical array of raindrops and interestingly, the almost windchime-like sounds made when the heavy droplets hit the drain grilles;create a haunting clink-clank which i initially recognised as the precise environment I studied best in. but here now,im lulled into oblivion in spite of my best efforts to push aside the weariness and weight on my eyelids.tell you,it was so tempting to lean back and induge myself! a pity i was invigilating. now back in my own corner in the workroom..im just plain hungry.

i read ari's blogposts. she's awesome. hee...and she's my sister's age.well well.

so sham brought us to this cafe.."mind cafe" along Prinsep St. i've can bet you i've not had a laugh as good or as hard as the one i did when we played Halli Galli. no link to fruits but tts wad the game is. and hilarious it was,you'd have to be there to know. i swear i almost blacked out from laughing!

so yeah,that was that. im still tired..